Sunday, November 29, 2009

Sunday after Thanksgiving

After a long, fun-filled, exhausting, yet exhilarting weekend, I was ready for a quiet Sunday afternoon. I practically begged Chris not to invite anyone over - no offense to any of our dear friends, I just wanted some down time... So, I've had a wonderful afteroon. Thank you Sweetheart! I just wish you were here with me to enjoy it.

Yes, Chris is out hunting... in this 4o degree weather. Yuck. I'd much rather be here sitting in the nice warm house with the Christmas tree all lit up... coffee... wrapping gifts while Elf plays in the background. Elijah's been sleeping over three hours... so it's been especially quiet. I even tackled a Christmas project, but ran out of ornaments. It's my intention to give these away as Christmas gifts.

So Nancy and I made our traditional Black Friday shopping trip. However, I'm fairly confident that someone had swiped the ads from our paper. There wasn't anything in it except a Target, Penny's, Lowe's, and Gordmans. No Wal-Mart, K-Mart, ToysRus, Kohls, etc. We felt like we were shopping in the dark! Oh well, we had a wonderful time shopping together. My deal of the day was a talking/singing puppy for $3.99 (less 30% off) that retails for $20. I got it at Children's Orchard and was especially excited about it. I've got a lot of my shopping finished now, but still have a few things to pick up.

Thanksgiving at Amy's was great. As always, her turkey was awesome. Love those injectables! We missed Timothy and Ashley, but everyone else was there. Elijah loved the stuffing and green beans. He seemed to care less about everything else. He's pretty wiped out - thus the three hour nap - but I know he had a great time playing with all his cousins - on both sides of the family.

Brother Eric did an amazing job on the sermon this weekend. Just last night I was feeling pretty down about my job situation. God really spoke to me through the sermon.... my goal to be a SAHM is an honorable goal and dream... it is worth fighting for and fight I will! My day of 'deliverance' is just around the corner!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Thanksgiving in my heart

I miss blogging. Good 'old fashioned' blogging. Ever since I got hooked on FB, I rarely blog. That is not a good thing. This blog is supposed to help me keep track of all my wonderful baby moments with my baby who is all to quickly becoming a little boy. Not only that, I like to be able to look back a year from now and see just what was happenin' in our lives.

Update on Elijah:
Elijah is 13.5 months old now. He's about to celebrate his second Thanksgiving. Of course, last year, he slept through most of it. This year, he's going to love it!

He's quite the little climber! He's figured out he can climb on his four wheeler and then on to the couch. Or his little push toy helps him reach the DVD player buttons. Or like last night - as I was putting the finishing touches on Christmas garland as I stood on my foot stool - he tried climbing up behind me. Then, after I finished using the foot stool, he climbed up on the top rung and stood there for probably 20 minutes just a singing, talking, and dancing away!

I get made fun of because I talk about what a good baby he is. I can't take the credit for that - I truly believe it's due to the power of prayer that he is who he is. Chris and I both prayed for a good baby and God sure came through for us. People tell me to enjoy it while it lasts. I try not to be to naive, but I choose to believe Elijah will continue to be a good boy. Oh, I know, he was born in sin and shaped in iniquity, but I'm so thankful for his even temper and behaviour.

Elijah hasn't picked up sign language as much as I'd hoped he would. He will sign 'more' but I'm quite sure he has it confused with 'eat'. I blame it on myself for not using sign language more around him and keep trying to show him various signs.

He is trying to communicate quite a bit. Poor little guy becomes so frustrated if you don't understand what he's trying to tell you. He only says a couple actual words - Momma and Dadda, stop, howoo (hallelu). However, he has the tones down for 'thank you, amen, praise ye the Lord (aise deee oooo). Chris and I love singing 'Hallelu, hallelu, hallelu' with him. His little 'howoo' is sooo cute. I need to catch it on video some day.

I could go on and on for hours about my little guy.... but alas, he has woke up and is (impatiently) waiting to be picked up from his crib.

Lord, thank you for so many things... my husband, my baby, my warm home, and all the many blessings I so often take for granted. Your love for me, your saving-all sufficient grace, and your sustaining strength are what gets me through day by day as a conquer. May I never overlook You or loose sight of Your precious promises. Amen.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

The Ram is on it's Way

The Ram is on its Way
20 Oct 2009
Glynnis Whitwer

"So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, 'On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided.'" Genesis 22:14 (NIV)

Have you ever been in a situation so desperate that it looked hopeless?

Have you ever sat at the kitchen table wondering how you were going to pay the electric bill? Have you ever stood at a door that's been slammed in your face by an angry teenager and despaired at ever having a relationship with him again? Have you ever had your heart broken so deeply that you wondered if you would ever feel whole again?

Sadly, we live in a broken world where desperate situations happen every day. I know someone reading this devotion is wondering how she will make it through the day because her situation looks hopeless. If that is you, I encourage you to keep reading. I believe God has a message of hope for you today.

That message is found in the Bible, in the story of a man who was dealing with his own desperate situation. His name was Abraham and he faced the greatest testing of his life. After longing for a son for many years, God finally gave Abraham a boy, whom he named Isaac. Abraham never imagined God would test his faith by asking him to sacrifice his son. But it happened.

It had to have been the darkest day of Abraham's life as he trudged up the mountain, with firewood strapped to his son's back. Every step took Abraham closer to what he believed to be the sad ending of a hopeless situation – the death of his son. Yet in spite of his sorrow, Abraham trusted God. His heart wasn't soaring with joy. He wasn't dancing up the mountain. But he put one foot in front of the other. Walking through the darkness of the situation; obeying His God's commands.

Unbeknownst to Abraham, som ething else was walking up that mountain. Quietly. Out of sight. On the other side of the mountain. Something else was putting one foot in front of the other. Only Abraham couldn't see it.

For every step Abraham took, a ram on the other side of the mountain took a step.

All Abraham saw that day was his solitary journey of pain. As he got closer to the top of the mountain, his dread must have increased. I wonder if he asked himself any questions. I would have. I would have wondered why hadn't God intervened? Why hadn't God stopped this testing? Couldn't God see that Abraham was a man of faith? Why test him in this way?

But there was no answer. There was no voice from heaven. And so Abraham kept obeying his God's command. He put Isaac on an altar and prepared to sacrifice his one and only son.

And just at that very moment, at the very last second, when it looked like the end had come, God spoke, stopping the sacrifice. Abraham looked up and there c aught in the thicket was a ram. Abraham took his son off the altar, replaced him with the ram, and offered the sacrifice to God.

Abraham named that place "Yahweh-Yireh" or "The Lord Will Provide." And the story was written down for generations of God-followers to read. It was written so that you and I today would read it as we face our own hopeless situations. It was captured in print so that you and I would know that God is already planning for our provision. We don't see it. We don't hear it. But we can trust that our God is at work. On your behalf, and on mine.I choose to trust God today. A ram is on the way.

Dear Lord, You know how desperate I am today. You know that my faith has wavered. Although I want to trust You, I'm having trouble doing so. I ask for Your intervention in my situation, and for an increase of my faith while I wait. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Application Steps:Read Psalm 91. List the promises God has for those who love Him.

Reflections:God's timing is not our timing. What are some reasons God might wait to answer our prayers?
Read the story of Abraham and Isaac in Genesis 22. What are some of the things Abraham did right that you can apply to your situation?

Power Verses:Psalm 91:14, "'Because he loves me,' says the LORD, 'I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.'" (NIV)Psalm 22:5, "They cried to you and were saved; in you they trusted and were not disappointed." (NIV)

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

My One Year Old

My sweet baby is a year old. I had intended to blog about it yesterday but didn't get around to it. I simply don't know how to put my feelings into words. Sometimes I feel like I'm in shock - every thing is happening in a haze around me. The time has went so fast and my sweet baby should quite possibly considered a toddler. He should still be cuddling and needing regular burpings. Right?

I know I sound like a pyschotic idiot, but while I'm still trying to deal with the shock of having a one year old, I'm so proud of him! He's so smart and learns so fast! I hope that's not just the bias Mommy in me talking. Oh well if it is!

  1. Elijah knows what the plug in the tub is for - and tries to put it back in after I've removed it to drain the water. Bath time is his favorite! He loves to SPLASH!

  2. Elijah already knows how to play ball. He gets his big bouncy ball and sits a few inches away from Daddy - they roll the ball back and forth between them.

  3. He got a cute little Leap Frog magnet set for his birthday - the party was Saturday, today is Tuesday... And Elijah already knows how to operate the buttons and make them play the songs he wants.

  4. He knows 'puppy' and 'barks' on cue!

Chris picked out a toddler sized ATV for Elijah's birthday present. He's figured out how to get on and off the ATV by himself, but still has trouble holding the button down on his own. Tonight, when I picked up the ATV to put it on the charger, Elijah became quite concerned about where his four wheeler was going.

On a not-so-fun-note, Chris and I have been more stressed than ever. I think it's mostly signs of the times, but it has been wearing on us both. If it's not our finances, it our jobs. If it's not the job, it's the church, etc. etc. Always something! I feel stressed and want to talk to Chris, but he feels enough stress without me whining too. I know the Lord will be given all the glory for this valley we're going through. And through Christ, we can and WILL find the strength to make it through. Lord, may I never doubt You!...

Keep watching for a testimony post...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Catching up...

I guess the biggest news since my last post is that Elijah is now walking. All. Over. The. Place. Once he started, he took off and pretty much, hasn't quit yet. He follows me all over the house, 'helps' with the dryer and the dishwasher. I'm fully convinced he'd 'help' with the washer if he could reach it.

Elijah loves to stand and look outside from our picture windows. If they're open, then all the world can hear his conversation with himself... or maybe he's singing. I'm not sure. Whatever that beautiful babble is, it means he's happy and I love to hear him.

Elijah's second favorite thing in the world is to stand at the toilet paper roll and see how fast he can un-roll it... and keeps himself balanced by holding to the toilet. So unsanitary! So many tears have been shed when Mommy caught him in the act. Tonight I think he unrolled nearly half the roll before I caught him! Oh, and he knows how to flush the toilet. Over and over and over again!

I've tried setting him on his potty chair. Mainly as an introduction to the potty chair. Certainly no real attempt to potty train. Of course, he doesn't have time to sit on the potty chair for long. He's got to many other things to do and see.

He's very curious by nature. I don't think there's a door, within his reach, that he hasn't opened at least once. He's got to check out everything. I like that. I'm hoping he'll be a reader some day, but so far, his only interest in books has been to chew on them.

I'm having a rather rough time with all these changes. It seems they're all happening way to fast. Just the words 'potty chair' and 'weaning' are enough to send me into the depths of dispair. I know this is all part of life, but gees... does life have to go by so fast? It seems so unreal that one year ago today, I still had over a month of pregnancy to go. And now, I'm planning his first birthday party!

Elijah is my little shopping buddy. He just sits in the cart and looks around. He'll talk to me some, but mostly just quietly observes. It's my prayer that this will continue to be his habit. He is such a joy to me to have him along. He attracts a lot of attention - especially from the older generation. Who can blame them? He's adorable and sweet too!

This week, starting Sunday night, I finally had enough of the bedtime battle. I love to rock Elijah to sleep and cuddle with him before I lay him down. But since he's started walking, he doesn't want to go to sleep. He wants to keep going! Bedtime became quite a hassle some nights. On Sunday, I seemed to have an abundance of patience so I made the decision to let him cry for five mintues. I went back in his room after five minutes and consoled him. Again, I let him cry another five. Consoled... and this time, he cried two minutes and was out.

On Monday night, he cried six minutes. Tuesday night was two minutes. Wednesday he came down with a cold. He fell asleep in my arms but was awake an hour later. This time he cried for nearly 30 mintues. Because he was sick my heart was extra soft so I tried to rock him, but even being sick, he was still fighting sleep. Today I was home with Elijah due to his cold. He took two naps - the second nap, he didn't shed a tear. When I put him down tonight, he cried a whole minute. I hope the bedtime battle is over for the most part.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

CMH bound

Elijah will be 10 months old tomorrow. I cannot believe how time flies now. Before he was born, I didn't think he'd ever get here. Now, it seems the days are only a blur!

On Saturday, August 1st, Elijah said Mumumum for the first time. Yep - it was just a sound, but by the end of the day, he'd figured out to say it for Momma. I was so proud and happy! I love being his Mommy and I hope to be everything a true Mother should be.

Today we're headed to CMH for a follow up ultrasound on his kidneys. In Feb. he was diagnosed with Kidney Reflux and today the doc will make sure the kidneys aren't enlarged. Elijah has had NO problems since his diagnosis. I truly believe God healed him of the problem. I am fully expecting a good report today.

Elijah went through a growth spurt this past week. He slept a lot and was eating all the time it seemed. I'm anxious to see what his weight is today. At his 9 month check up, he weighed 20 lbs 2 oz. I'm pretty sure he weighs more than that now. It seems he gained weight over night. And, I can tell his little feet have grown too. This Momma knows her baby and those feet are longer today than they were a week ago. I know he's outgrown some of his size 3 shoes.

Elijah's not walking on his own yet - he still wants Mommy or Daddy to help him. Or he will use a chair, the trash can (when I'm not there to stop him), or anything that moves to help him get around. It's actually quite funny to see him pushing stuff around the house to help him walk. He loves the little push toy Aunt Tiffany loaned him. He'll push it around until he gets it stuck. It's only a matter of time before he's on his own.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

9 months and beyond

9 Months old - new hair cut too!
Helping Mommy

Sweet baby face

I love French Fries!

Daddy's first Father's Day

It's so hard to believe Elijah is 9 months old already! Where has the time gone? Elijah has brought so much joy to our lives. I don't know what we did pre-baby! Don't get me wrong, we weren't unhappy, but now that we have this precious baby as part of our lives, I can't help but wonder "what were we thinking??"
Elijah cut his first tooth on Tuesday, July 7th. He's working hard on tooth #2 now. I guess I need to get him started 'brushing' his teeth. I pray and believe he will have healthy, straight, teeth all his life. I've always had very good teeth (no cavities - ever) and want the same for him. Chris, on the other hand, has had a lot of dental issues - including braces. I do not want the same for our son. I asked God, while I was pregnant, that Elijah would have healthy eyes and teeth - so far, we know the eye part has been answered! Praise God! I believe God's already answered the teeth part too!
Elijah is trying to walk. He loves to let go of the furniture or our hands and then listen to us praise his efforts! He just glows when we cheer for him. I borrowed a little push around toy from Tiffany - Elijah LOVES it and pushes it all over this house! I wasn't sure if he'd be able to control it, but he does very well.
Elijah is very picky about textures when eating. His food must be very soft. He will eat bread, french fries, rice cakes, and a few other non-baby food items. For the most part, he wants his food pureed! Silly boy - if it's not pureed, he gags!
Right now, my baby boy is sleeping peacefully. I don't know why I'm up. I don't know of a time when Elijah has ever slept this late on a Saturday morning. I was hoping to sleep in this morning - and I could have, but didn't. He sleeps so restless, that I wasn't expecting him to sleep long.
I'd blog about Chris and I's life a bit more except that our lives evolve around Elijah. People say he's spoiled, and for now, I'm fine with that! He's such a good baby - and is Daddy's boy all around. He gets SO excited to see Daddy! He'll squeal and laugh! I've got to try to capture it on video some day soon!
I am finally taking Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University. What a difference it's made in our lives. I sat down one night and actually figured our monthly spending by using a previous month. We were both SHOCKED to see how much we really do spend. In our minds, we had it under control... but were very unhappy to see just how out-of-control our spending really was. By God's grace, we're doing much better. I've got to go grocery shopping today - it's kind of a challenge to see how well I do. I wish I lived closer to town - or didn't work - so I could do weekly shopping and take advantage of sales and do some real couponing! But with working and our hectic lives, it's just not practical to do a weekly shopping trip. I thank God for Aldi! I know I'm getting a low price item and a lot of times - they beat a sale price at other stores!
Well, the house isn't getting cleaned with me sitting here typing. I need to take advantage of Elijah's late sleeping to get a few things done...

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Playing Catch-up

Since my last blog:

Elijah has not only started pulling up to furniture, he's attempting to walk. He doesn't want to sit still any more; he must be on the move. He crawls/Army crawls about 50% of the time... he can't decide which crawl is faster. Daddy keeps trying to get him to walk, but I keep telling Daddy that we want our baby to be a baby as long as he can.
Still no teeth, but some days he chews on everything in sight... including my shoulder.

Elijah LOVES the pool. He hates getting used to the water, but once he's in, he'll splash and splash. I bought him the cutest pair of trucks that double as a swim diaper. They're supposed to be 'water' proof and 'solid' proof. So far so good. I bought them for about the same price as one package of swim diapers. He looks so cute in them... so grown up!

For Chris' first Father's Day gift, I bought tickets for us to go watch the Royals play the Cards. We're still debating on whether or not to leave Elijah. I tears my heart in two to think of leaving him, but I know Chris and I really need the time together. Part of me argues that it's Chris' FATHER'S Day gift and we should enjoy the time with our SON, but the other part of me knows just how much fun it will be to keep an 8 month old entertained through a 3 hour game. I can't imagine leaving him, but I'm pretty sure that's what we're going to do.
I took Elijah with me to a wedding a couple weeks back. He spilled my juice at the reception/brunch all over himself. He was soooo cute... he kept looking at his pants, then at the cup, back at his pants, then at the cup again... He could NOT figure out what had happened! It was one of those times Mommy wasn't watching close enough and before I knew it... He'd spilled my juice.
Still doesn't appear to be any way for me to stay at home in the near future. I know we serve a God of miracles so I'm not giving up. He will make a way when there seems to be no way. My heart breaks a little each day - Elijah's growing up so fast and I feel like I've missed out on so much of it already. I can not get these moments back. Ever. I want so bad to be mad at someone or to blame someone for this horrid trial I've been through, but there is no one to blame but me. No one to be mad at either. And even if there was, being mad wouldn't help anything. So I'm gonna keep pressin' on.
Chris is painting our house - it's looking so good! I'm getting so sleepy... so good night world!

Monday, May 4, 2009

7 months old...

Elijah will be 7 months old tomorrow. Once again, the magnitude of how quickly his life is moving is hitting me like a ton of bricks. When I realized he would, in fact, be 7 months old tomorrow, I wanted to sit down and cry. Instead, I grabbed my camera and we rolled around on the floor taking pictures. He wanted to eat the camera and was totally fascinated by the flash that kept going off... I don't think I got any spectacular photos, but the memories we created will be forever in my mind.

Elijah is teething for sure... his poor little gums have been quite swollen the past couple days. He won't let me get a good look at them and I'm so terrible at trying to 'feel' his gums. I end up making Elijah upset. He took a long nap this evening and when he woke up was all smiles and laughter. I had been surfing the 'net, but realized this was definetely one of those times I wanted to enjoy my time with him. Blogger and Facebook doesn't have anything that could compare with the smell of my freshly bathed baby... who was giggles and coos... with lots of 'kisses' too.

Elijah is quite good at army crawling. He still hasn't figured out that he can crawl to Momma who happens to be across the room. He just sits and cries to get my attention. Someday he's going to figure out he can follow Mommy around...

He's also figuring out how to pull up. He's not figured out how to get his feet under him, but he is starting to understand pulling up on things. Yesterday I walked in his room when he was supposed to be going to sleep. There he was, pulled up into a kneeling position up against the side of the crib. I ran for the camera, but he was already down by the time I got back in the room. Tonight, as I was changing his diaper, he tried pulling up using the window sill. (I have always kept a couple toys for him to chew on and play with during diaper changes on the window sill) He knows what's up there and was pulling up to get closer to the toys. I just watched in amazement. Where is my little baby?

Chris and the guys at church are working on another project. They're installing a new sign in the church yard and prepping for paint. This weekend is the big day to paint the exterior. We're using the same color (white) but this is the first exterior paint our little building has seen in years, and years, and years. Our little church building is so tiny, but it has character and we've made some HUGE improvements over the past five years. God has blessed us.

I hope to blog soon about my latest garage sale deals...

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Back pain, sippy cups, and six month check up...

Wow... what a week. I'm not really sure I want to remember this week... but it's a big part of my life.

I missed work April 17th because Elijah wasn't feeling well. All day Friday and Saturday was spent rocking, holding... you know, comforting my precious baby. He mainly had the symptoms of a cold, with a light grade fever too. Through the night, I was up with him (literally) 6-8 times due to gas and belly troubles. I finally remembered I'd started giving him Chicken Vegetable dinner and Macaroni and Cheese dinner. Jarred baby food, of course, but apparently his tummy isn't ready for that much variety.

Sunday night, as I was getting up with him for the 3rd? 4th? time (who's counting by then anyways?) I pulled my back. I didn't realize how badly I was hurt as I didn't actually stand up. I told Chris I'd hurt my back - he brought Elijah to our bed thinking he'd settle down and sleep better. Wrong.

About 15 minutes later, Elijah was still crying. I asked Chris to help me out of bed and I'd sleep in the living room. When I stood up, I realized just how badly my back was hurt. I went into mild shock and could barely walk or stand. Poor Chris had crying Elijah in his arms and me - holding onto his arm crying too. He was so stressed. He just started praying to God to help all three of us through the night. I made it to the recliner with an ice pack and slept there the rest of the night. (Sort of)

To make a really long story short, Dr. Olson has decided there isn't any disk damage, but only nerve damage. That is good news. The bad news is there is little to do to relieve the pain. I'm to avoid all soft couches and recliners, sitting and bending. Chris took off part of Monday to help care for me and to take me to the doctor. Leta kept Elijah both Monday and Tuesday as I simply couldn't take care of him. I even had to go back to pumping as I couldn't hold Elijah to feed him. It was a rough week, but God is gracious.

Lets see... Tuesday, I was spared from a horrible auto accident. Thursday Chris was spared from a horrible auto accident. Wednesday we were invaded with flying termites. Chris is in the second week of his cold. Elijah and I both caught Chris' cold. See why I'm not sure I want to remember the past week?

Looking at the positive, I was able to keep Elijah Wednesday and Friday. Jennifer Richards came Thursday night and helped take care of Elijah and cleaned house for me. She was such a blessing to me. I enjoyed her help and company. I had tried working on Thursday but after 3 1/2 hours decided I wasn't up to the job. I could barely think between the back pain and the cold. Ugh. Everyone kept asking why I was there. I had wanted to spare some precious vacation time, but oh well. There is a reason for all this, right?

Elijah has really taken off with his sippy cup. He loves to chew on it as well as drink the apple juice (watered down!) I give him. He's having a difficult time sleeping without being rocked to sleep, but I know it shall pass after his cold is over. (I'm choosing to think positively here!) Tonight he and I went for a walk as he loves, loves, loves, being in the stroller. He actually fell asleep just as we arrived home. I changed and fed him about two mintues before he was out for the night. That was at 8:30... some one tell me why I'm not taking advantage of the situation by catching up on some of my own sleep?

I was able to take Elijah for his 6 month check up and shots. He now weighs 18 pounds and is 27" long! He had to get three shots and poor little guy didn't like that one bit! But he ended up laughing at the nurse, Candy, before it was all said and done. He just loves her and she loves him right back. Doc said the cold would have to run it's course...

Elijah is also picking up on the army crawling now. He prefers to stand... I'm beginning to wonder if he'll skip crawling and go straight to walking! Wow... that would be a handful!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Sick baby and cleaning supplies

Elijah is sick with another cold - third time in his short life. He's always a trooper and still smiles even though you know he does not feel well. His poor left eye started out being red and swollen - that evolved into the sniffles and a very dry cough. He also had a low grade fever but it's gone now. I'm thinking teething may be playing into the picture too.

Thursday night, Elijah and I ended up sleeping in the guest room together. We were up every hour, but wouldn't you know it? He woke me up about 7:15 with a smile on his face, just a jabberin' away! I tried to keep sleeping but felt a little hand on my face. When I opened my eyes, he planted a big, wet, slobbery kiss on my cheek and then just grinned! Talk about melting my heart! I am blessed with a very sweet baby.

Yesterday I decided to take Elijah outside for a while. The temp reached 78 degrees - I figured he'd be fine. We were out about 15 minutes when he sneezed. I turned around and found his eyes watering (read: tears streaming down his cheeks) and his nose running away... The word 'allergies' popped into my head and my righteous indignation got the best of me. I had it out right then and there with that stinkin' devil. I reminded him that Elijah IS a son of God and satan has NO ground to stand on. I REFUSE to accept allergies for my baby. God said speak it, claim it, and believe it. I've done that and now I KNOW God will touch my poor baby. Doesn't matter how many times that cat scratches at the door, I will not let him in!

I spent a LOT of time holding Elijah yesterday. That means I spent a lot of time sitting too. Wouldn't you know it? I pulled my back out again. Sitting is like the worst thing you can do for this sciatic nerve. I had trouble with it some time back - thank goodness, this time isn't nearly as bad! I claim healing for that too. I was planning to go see my Aunt Mary and Uncle Chris from Virginia, but now I think I'll stay home. Driving and sitting are so hard when this back acts up. I'm so bummed. They've not seen my baby and I've not seen them for a couple years. Not only them, but a lot of my mom's family was going to be there too. A mini family reunion I guess...

About the cleaning supplies... I'm just tickled pink with myself. I'm trying, really hard, to learn to spend frugally. It's hard, but I know it's not going to be an overnight transformation. I don't know about you, but I've been sucked into those stupid cleaning supply commercials, more than once. You know the ones I'm talking about: spray the cleaner on and miraculously the surface becomes new and sparkly clean. In other words - ALL cleaning product commercials! I've bought the product only to be severely disappointed. Again.

Well, this time I made my own cleaner. (I have a whirlpool bathtub that is very hard to keep clean - our hard water and grime just GLUE themselves to the tub) All you need is Dawn dish detergent and a little vinegar. Maybe you all have tried this and I'm the one that's just now catching up - whatever the case may be... this stuff WORKS. Those cleaning commercials? I'm convinced they use this cleaner and only pretend to use the name brand stuff. It literally is: spray on, wipe off. I love it. You could get pretty high on the fumes (don't use in small spaces that don't have any ventilation) but I can live with that for now. Here is a video to show you how to make the stuff. Fine print: I've not tested on all surfaces - use at your own risk.

I need to buy diapers - I hate NEEDING to buy diapers. Previously, I've had a nice little stash and bought diapers ahead of time when I found a great deal. This time, the great deals have alluded me and now I NEED to buy diapers. I'm off to see if there are any good deals to be found online... I sure hope so.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Good Friday with my baby

I love having Good Friday off... this morning, is definitely one of those moments I want to remember all my life...

About 7:42 Elijah woke me up with beautiful baby sounds. He started out with 'da-da-da-da' and then sang to me, talked to me... clapped his hands and tried to chew on his toes. It was such a precious moment(s) for me. We didn't get up until nearly 8:30 - we just enjoyed our time together. No rushing to get to work. (Yuck) I should have more morning's off.

Elijah's pictures are done. As usual, Jayme's work in amazing. The pictures are at - click on Elijah Beard; the password is Aaron. I have no idea how I'm going to pick from these pictures.

Off to enjoy a my (busy) day with Elijah.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Elijah's Growing to Fast - How Can I Remember it All?

I wish I blogged more. My problem is when I get a quick minute to get online, I end up stuck on Facebook or reading blogs and don't take the time to actually blog for myself. I'm getting concerned that I won't keep track of all the amazing things my sweet baby is doing and how he's growing. These days pass so quickly and they're gone forever - unless I take the time and effort to carefully journal his precious antics and accomplishments.

So first I want to catch up Elijah; he's six months old as of this past weekend. He's grown so much. I don't realize how MUCH until I take the time to look at 'before' and 'after'. Last night I took the time to watch a couple video clips from when he was a month or so old. Wow! He was so little. I don't remember him looking that way until I look at those pictures.

Elijah loves to say 'da-da-da-da-da' much to Chris' pleasure. His other 'word' is 'bu-bu-bu-bu-bu' and today, I heard a 'ge-ge'. Wow... moving right along in the vocab department. He's also learned to blow raspberries. He loves to smile, easily laughs, and is over all a very happy baby. He chews his toes if I let him and has tried to eat Chris, Papa (Beard) and my toes too. He chews on everything, which is probably part of the teething stage. Elijah loves the Exersaucer too - it's his favorite past time. He's not crawling yet, but can roll just about anywhere he wants to go. He will get up on all fours, but hasn't figured out how to make all four work together.

Elijah's favorite food seems to be applesauce and sweet potatoes. I mix them both with rice or oatmeal ceral and he loves, loves, loves to eat. I can't seem to feed him fast enough. He groans and grunts through dinner - which seems to be his way of communicating "I'm hungry and want food NOW." The only food Elijah has shown disinterest in is fresh bananna's and avacodo. He eats bannana from a jar and likes it fine. I'm sure the flavor is quite watered down. I've tried pureed bananna and he still won't eat it very well. He's moving into stage 2 foods - but mostly eat's the food I make for him at home. He's starting to learn how to drink from a sippy cup too. He's not got it down 100% yet, but he'll be there before I know it and I don't want to rush him.

Two weeks ago, Elijah and I went to Granna and Papa (Miller) to help them move. We traveled alone in the truck. Elijah did very well, but was very tired of the carseat by the time we reached our destination. He interacted very well with Stephen, his cousin, that is six months older. They enjoyed watching Baby Signs together.

While in Fort Smith, he and I were sitting at a stop light waiting for the green light. Elijah, of course, was sitting in the front seat with me because we were in the truck. I was making silly faces and he laughed and laughed at me. It was so precious and I nearly missed the light because I was enjoying the moment so much. That one moment was worth all the missed sleep, all the dirty diapers, and I pray we have many more beautiful moments to come.

Elijah is still sleeping through the night and now only needs to be put in his crib to sleep. I've always hoped I'd have a baby that sleeps on his own - God has given me the desire of my heart. In fact, he does better going to sleep in his crib vs. being rocked or nursed to sleep. Wow. Mornings are my favorite time of the day... even if I can't sleep in. There's something about walking into Elijah's room and seeing that precious smile greet me. And morning's are the only time Elijah likes to cuddle. He just lights up when he sees me. I love it.

Monday we had his six months pictures taken at Magic Wand. Jayme is awesome and I can't wait to see the proofs. Elijah really hammed for the first 1/2 of the session, but then got tired and ended up falling twice. Not good - but I know the pictures will turn out awesome.

This will be his first Easter - I'm debating whether or not I should get the Easter basket tradition started this year. Part of me hesitates because I know he won't have a clue what is going on, but then I hate to miss it too. My parents didn't do much of anything other than a egg hunt, but Chris' parents did baskets, etc. I did buy Elijah the cutest little outfit for Easter. He looks so cute in it. He and Daddy will be matching for it.

Speaking of Daddy - he's so awesome with Elijah... and Elijah adores his Daddy. His little face lights up when he sees his Daddy. Chris has also taken over two cooking nights for me - Tuesday and Thursday. This really gives me a break and I really appreciate Chris' help. He helps around the house to the point there are days when he does more work than I...

I'm sure there is so much more I am forgetting to add - I really need to either start blogging more OR writing a paper journal - you know, with a pen and paper! LOL

Let's see, in other news, I went garage saleing last weekend and got some great deals. I got a pair of Robeez for $1, a lot (7) Avent bottles for $5, a box of Abeka books for $1, quite a few clothes for Elijah, and several other odds and end stuff. Oh yeah, I got a new curtain for my kitchen for $2 - add a rod for $1 - it's not my favorite curtain, but I can live with it for $3.

So here are some pictures and then I've gotta run...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Life as Mommy

I'm finding out just how hectic life can be as a mommy. Seems I'm meeting myself coming and going these days. But you know what, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love my little guy!

I'm actually on my laptop with both hands! Normally if I get a minute to get online, it's while I'm feeding Elijah... and I've only got one free hand. This morning, we're at Lori and Israel's - Mariah and Andrew are keeping Elijah entertained while I do some surfing and blogging! Oh the joy you find in the little things! LOL

Since I last blogged...

Elijah got a hair cut last week. I have 'before' and 'after' pictures, but the 'after' pictures aren't very good. The video is at home. I've got to get it posted.

Here's Before:

See the little curl?

Here's 'after' with Christy, the beautician who cut his hair (not the greatest picture of Elijah)

Since I last blogged.... I sold my couch and loveseat and bought a new couch. I love it, but don't have any pictures of the new couch yet.

...we spent the weekend in Springfield and went to my old home church. My childhood pastor, Brother Brown, got to meet my little angel (Bro. Brown knew my parents before I was born, dedicated me as a baby, and performed Chris and I's wedding)

Gotta go - everyone is up and around. I need to get dressed and start the day!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The end of February already???

I cannot believe how quickly the time is flying by. It seems only yesterday Christmas was here... and now the end of February is on us. I keep thinking I'm going to blog more, but most of my internet time is one-hand browsing during feedings. Makes it rather hard to comment and blog.

In only a few short days, my precious baby will be 5 months old. He's growing so fast and changing in so many ways. Part of me wants to just sob, but the other part of me is so happy and proud of my little man. He's so precious. I try to smother him in love everyday. I want him to grow up knowing his Momma loves him. The picture below is from Valentines Day; he was wearing his "Mommy loves me" onesie that I love so much.

He's become quite the pro at fighting sleep. I'm trying to deal with that the best I can. I've started a routine of bath time, cereal, and then nursing to sleep. It works most nights but not all the time. Once he's asleep, he usually only wakes up once or twice through the night. He's usually out until 6:30 in the morning.
Elijah's doing very well with sitting up, but hasn't completely mastered it. He loves his Exersaucer. He'll sit in it and just play for a very long time. The first time I put him in it, he loved it! He smiled, laughed, and then started accidentally pushing the electronic buttons. He couldn't figure out where the noises were coming from, but loved them anyways.

I think most of you know we have a new nephew in the family. Jereamiah Briden-Ray Beard was born Feb. 12th at 10:33 a.m. He weighed in at 4 lbs, 10 oz. Christina had a super fast delivery... I'm so jealous (of the fast delivery). We were visiting them at the hospital and she was saying that the birth certificate listed his birth at 10:33. Then she got out her phone and looked at the call time... at 9:55 she was on the phone with the nurse telling them she was nearly at the doctors office. In 38 minutes, she was checked by the doctor, rushed to the ER, and delivered. Wow! Yes, I know it was seven weeks early and something, quite obviously wasn't right, but man! Can you imagine? Makes my 20+ hour labor seem extra long! The little guy is doing so well. He's taking a bottle some, but still has a feeding tube too. Other than that, he's off the respirator, IV, etc. I can't remember his last weight... and even at that, the last numbers I heard was on Sunday and you know how fast a baby can change!

We're going to Johnny and AJ's this weekend. On Sunday we'll attend Brother Brown's church. Very few people from that church has seen our baby - and they'll be seeing a 5 month old! I hate it that we've not gotten down there, but seems life just hits you from one side and then keeps right on going.

Keep me in your prayers. Today has been one of them days that work, home-making, and mommy-hood have come crashing in on me all at once. I keep telling myself that my baby could be in NICU. I could be jobless. My life could be so much worse, but I think the hormones are in overdrive.

On that note, here's five blessings in my life:

  1. I have good health insurance
  2. We have two good working vehicles
  3. The sun was shining today - and I took Elijah for a walk in it
  4. My carpets are fresh and clean - thanks to a hard working husband
  5. I am surrounded by my happy, healthy, family

So you see, I have so much to be thankful for. Good night!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Relief and praise

Today was Elijah's big day at Children's Mercy in KC. We got there with no problems and had plenty of time to spare. The clinic is beautiful - so brightly colored and totally geared towards kids. The staff is just great; Joan, our nurse, was so kind and caring. Elijah kept showing off for all the nurses and just loved all the extra attention.

I really like the Urologist, Dr. DeMarco. He examined Elijah and said 'everything' looked good. Because of the continued events with blood (in his diaper) the good Dr. ordered a VCUG (see page 3 of this pdf file) and ultrasound.

For the VCUG, they had to insert a catheter. Thankfully, they used a topical numbing gel and sugar water to help with the pain. The nurse was brilliant and Elijah did so good. He kept smiling until his little bladder got to full. Then he started crying... Once he was able to pee, he was super happy again.

After the tests, we went back to Dr. DeMarco. He showed us in the ultrasound that Elijah has some inflammation in his right kidney, but it is minimal. The other kidney looks good. Elijah does have reflux though. Basically, his bladder isn't draining properly causing the urine to back up into the kidneys. Elijah should outgrow this condition - it rarely requires additional treatment. We're to only watch for a high fever, which could be a sign of a kidney infection.

I'm am so thankful to the Lord that Elijah's problem isn't anymore serious than this. I've been claiming and believing for Elijah's healing since day one the blood showed up in his diaper. I know it's happened for a reason - and I'm so thankful my baby isn't suffering the same as some of the children I seen today. I give all the glory and praise to Jesus!

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Saturday Morning Musings

It's a beautiful Saturday morning here in the "Show-Me-State". A balmy 49 degrees, but the sun is shining. I didn't get to sleep in, but that's fine with me. 5:22 is early, but I don't mind getting up with my baby. Those early morning feedings are some of the most precious moments I have with my baby boy. He seemed especially sweet and talkative this morning, making all the more worth while. I didn't go back to bed because I'd planned to make up some time at work. When I arrived, the network must have some issues because I wasn't able to log in.

Chris has already filed our taxes for 2008. See that little man on the left of this page? Isn't he the cutest little Tax Deduction you've ever seen? Our return is definately larger, thanks to Elijah. I'm so happy to be able to pay off a bill AND put a bit in savings. Quite a good way to start the weekend!

The above picture was taken on Chris' birthday. It was the first birthday he's celebrated as a Daddy. Last year, we didn't know we were expecting on his birthday. I love the transformation our lives has had. Even though Elijah and I were sick, I know Chris enjoyed his special day. I bought him an "Secret Service" coat for his birthday. He looks so handsome in it. It's a heavy wool fabric and Chris said it is the warmest coat he owns. S&K Menswear had a good price on their coats (1/2 off). I was pleased that Chris liked his coat so well.

Has everyone seen Fireproof? We're having friends over tonight to watch it for the first time. We had both wanted to go see it when it opened in the theater, but because I was 39 weeks pregnant, we didn't make it. I'm not big on going to the theaters, but to be honest, I really want to support these types of movies. I would like for Hollywood to get the message that we're sick of trash and want movies with wholesome content. We own their first two movies also, Flywheel and Facing the Giants - both are excellent films I would recommend to anyone. Even my Dad wants to see them! Facing the Giants has literally been an inspiration to both Chris and I.

See my Christmas present from Mom and Dad? It's been oiled and has trim on it now, but it's gorgeous! Dad built Amy & I each one of these chests using cedar lumber that he'd gotten from his dad's furniture shop. I'm not really sure how Dad acquired the lumber since his dad passed away in '78. Regardless of that fact, I'm proud to have such a beautiful piece of handmade furniture. It's an heirloom that I'll be proud to pass on someday.

I should get off here. I've been on the computer more today than in weeks. I hadn't uploaded pictures in forever but I'm finally caught up on that. TTFN!

Monday, January 26, 2009

Updating... finally!

I've had the internet back nearly a week and still no update... yep, life sure is busy these days. But oh the joy that fills my days now.

So what was up with the phone/internet? Well, several months back, I switched from Windstream (aka Alltel) to MediaCom. Can you blame me? I got a better calling plan, faster internet, and saved $15/month to boot! No problems until maybe November?? I can't remember the exact time, but from then on, it seems we were without service more than we had working service. We tried their customer service but each time was told to 'reset the modem'. I finally got ticked and said 'No more!' I'm changing back to Windstream. I called Windstream and placed the order. (Keep in mind, I really, really, dislike Windstream from way back when) I couldn't cancel Mediacom until they had ported my number over. Several days later I called Windstream back because I'd not gotten any confirmation of my order. "Oh... sorry... we lost your order." *gasp*WHAT????* They'll have it ready in two days. Two days later, still no internet. I call back again. This time they gave some other half crazed excuse - something about it being routed to the wrong department. By this time I was ready to pull my hair out. Finally after many hours on the phone, I got an installation date of Jan. 21. In all this time, I'd been told the hold up was Mediacom... but MC said it was Windstream holding up everything. I know it's a long story, but the point is - we finally got our service back. Oh, and the problem this whole time? Squirrels had destroyed our MC cable. Go figure.

Elijah? He's doing great. Growing like a weed. Nearly 4 months old now. I can't believe how much he's changing... trying to sit up on his own, rolling from his back to belly, talking like crazy, and just being his sweet self. We have an appointment set for Feb. 10th to see a pediatric Urologist for the continued blood in his urine. After talking to the nurse, she and the nurse practioner there at Children's Mercy think he has a cyst that is blocking his ability to properly drain his bladder. There was no red blood cells in his urine samples which means the problem is NOT his kidneys. This is very good news. We'll find out more about the exact cause and treatment options when we go to Children's Mercy next month. Right now, he's fighting a cold that has settled in his chest. Poor little guy is just plain miserable. He can't breathe very well which effects his sleep and his eating. He's ran a fever too, but that seems better now. Today he's been better and has been so smiley. As soon as I saw the smiles he had this morning, I knew he was better. When I get the chance, I'll try to upload a video of him laughing. It's soooo cute!

Chris celebrated his birthday yesterday. He's 36 now... and it was his first birthday as a daddy. Poor guy - Elijah and I were both sick. Not the happiest birthday he's ever had, I'm sure. But Leta fixed dinner and Chris' favorite cake yesterday. That made it a good day. I got him a nice dress coat for his birthday. He loves it. Ben and Israel both said it made them feel like the Secret Service when they tried it on! LOL

I'm doing fine - other than this pesky cold or sinus junk. Whatever it's called, it's miserable. I'm still working, but still believing that my day is tomorrow. With Elijah sick, it makes me want to stay home that much more. I know my day will come. Being a supervisor certainly has it's challenges. The department I'm overseeing is in quite a mess. The training, work, etc... all of it is kinda... um... challenging. We've made some progress already, but it seems we have so far to go.

Well, there is certainly more that I wanted to blog about, but I can't seem to think right now. I'm very tired and need to sleep while Elijah is sleeping.


Saturday, January 24, 2009

Will update soon...

Just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive. I want to get an update posted, but don't know when that will be. Since we were nearly 3 weeks without the internet, I have broke the 'habit'. Now I feel that if I have spare time, I should spend it with Elijah. He's growing so fast and the time is to short and precious.

Love to all my 'followers!'

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


Will post when I'm able... our internet/phone is out. We have a new provider lined up to install soon!