Friday, January 22, 2010

Prayers and Housework

We always pray over our food before we eat... and we join hands during the prayer. Elijah has gotten the part about holding hands. (Not the part about being quiet!) The other day we were praying over our food and Chris didn't hold Elijah's hand. During the prayer Elijah reached over to Chris' arm and tuggggged on Chris' arm until he could reach Chris' hand. Then he put his little hand in Chris' hand for the remainder of the prayer.

And now, we must stop and pray mid-meal. Of course, we don't stop him... I want to encourage Elijah to pray any time. It's so sweet to see him bow his head, mutter something in his baby language, and the make a baby noise that some what resembles 'Amen'.

This week Chris was home one day with Elijah. Chris cleaned the house, did the laundry, etc. As I came walking home for lunch, there was Chris at the front window cleaning the window. And at his side was a smiling little boy. As Chris and I stood there talking, Elijah picked up the rag and began to 'clean' the window. After a few swipes, he turned to Chris and indicated he wanted the cleaner sprayed on the window. Chris obliged and then Elijah promptly started cleaning again. We were able to get a few pictures and a bit of video of this sweet moment. Then, just when we thought he was finished... Elijah walked to the front foyer and started cleaning up the mud I'd tracked in!

What a sweetie! The best part? He's learning from a wonderful example.

Friday, January 15, 2010

How Beautiful Heaven Must Be

Today I was thinking about how tired I am of just living day to day. I was once again, facing a fear that has been tormenting me for some time. It's a fear that has merit, but really is out of my control. I'm weary and tired of fighting this fear. Fear that something will happen to Elijah - that he'll die. I don't know how I'd handle it. I'm not sure why I've suddenly been plagued with this... It's always been in the back of my mind (I'm assuming this is a normal Mommy worry) but lately it's been way to constant and demanding.

(Don't get me wrong, I have a very blessed life. I'm happy - just horomonal right now due to that ever reappearing visit.) So as I was reflecting on life in general and this fear, I remembered a little vacation - or a little piece of heaven - I experienced about 15 months ago.

Yes, I'm referring to my hospital stay when Elijah was born.

It wasn't easy - being cut open and recovering. But it was bliss in other ways. For five whole days we didn't turn on the TV for news and didn't get online either. It was five whole days of meeting a beautiful baby boy. Complete focus on Elijah's care, my recovery, and Chris' sanity! Now that hospital room cannot compare to heaven. I'm NOT trying to say that.

What was like heaven about this? Well, for that five whole days - I forgot there was an election about to happen. I completely forgot about the condition of the economy. I didn't think about bills or money (well, maybe once or twice.) I remember coming home and someone mentioning Sarah Palin... it was like a lightning jolt back to reality. WHAT?? The world continued to spin? The election didn't go away? What about the economy? It was like all those 'important' things had been erased from my mind.

Somehow I think heaven will be like THAT. No bills. No elections. No horrific earthquakes. No sick babies. No living in fear that your baby will die. Nothing but pure bliss and WORSHIP! It will be complete focus on Him - the Eternal One. I don't know about you, but I can't wait to be there.

So, for now I've decided to push this fear aside. There isn't a single thing I can do until it's Elijah's time to go. Actually, he is immortal until it is his time to go. If I have to face that day all to soon, I am confident God will give me the strength to survive.

In the meantime, I ask God's blessing on Elijah's life and that he may have long years upon this earth. I pray that he will grow to love the Lord with all his might, soul, and heart. I pray for his safety and God's perfect will in all he does. I pray for Elijah's salvation. And I know, anything I ask, in His name... will come to pass. What a promise.

"How beautiful heaven must be
Sweet home of the happy and free
Fair haven of rest for the weary
How beautiful heaven must be"

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Welcome 2010!

I noticed a reoccurring theme on FB as 2009 drew to a close. Many people were looking forward to the end of the year and "hoping 2010 was much better than 2009". No, I'm not in their shoes, but I can't dish out such pessimism. I'm looking forward to each new day the year brings. Yes, we had our ups and downs during the previous year... and I'm sure there will be plenty of the same in the coming year. I'm so thankful there is One who will go with me through each day as it appears!

Christmas was just fabulous - in spite of a rough start. On Tuesday, the 21st, Elijah started running a fever. By Wednesday, I stayed home from work and took him to the doctor. Tylenol would only bring the fever down a degree or so, even though he was only dressed in a onesie all day. Also, he threw up for the first time and was quite shocked by it. Poor little guy didn't know what was going on. By Tuesday night the fever kept climbing to 102.8... and I knew we had to do something. I googled home remedies and found on called 'vinegar socks'. I tried it and by God's grace, it worked! We cancelled our Wednesday trip to Mom and Dad's and instead went on Saturday.

We ended up with a White Christmas - thanks to Chris' prayers. He specifically asked for 6" and that is exactly what we got... after we'd got an inch of sleet. That snow is still present as our temps have been in the single digits.... and we've gotten two or three snows since then. It is very beautiful, in spite of the cold temps. I love watching the flakes fall!

Elijah has become quite verbal recently. No, we can't tell what he's saying but he's quite the chatter box. He seems to understand 'No' quite well... at least when HE'S using the word. He also says uh-oh, da (dad), tu (cup), and a host of other words that only Mommy understands. (I love it! Feels like we have our own secret language)

He's growing so fast. I seriously don't know where all the time has gone. He's soooo busy and curious. Makes me think of when I was pregnant. He moved non-stop! He's living up to that same reputation now.

A few memories:
  • Tonight he grabbed a roll of clear packing tape and was using it for a steering wheel.
  • Dinner isn't over until he's grabbed his utensils and held his own little 'concert'.
  • He still loves baths - but now detests laying in the water to have his hair washed.
  • Loves cheese curls - the cheesier, the better.
  • Is so curious he makes my head spin!
  • Repeatedly gets into my CD collection - in spite of all forms of correction
  • Loves all the computers (I caught him standing at the desktop with the keyboard tray pulled out - he was furiously pounding away on the keys... not sure what he was typing, but he may have started his own blog!)
  • Would rather 'operate' the camera than have his picture taken
  • Has Daddy's 'fiddle-fingers'

Ah... I want to memorize it all and keep it all in!

On a more sober note, Andy and Syndi's baby boy, Isaac, is at Children's Mercy. His condition is quite odd... some type of infection in the stomach. His kidneys are only operating at 50%. It's hit quite close to home for me. I very well remember the days of visiting CMH... our visits were short. I can't imagine the Edwards pain.

Just before Christmas the fuel pump in my car went out. There's always something, right? Thank God - it wasn't the timing belt as we'd originally thought. Ben was able to help us fix it!

January 17th we'll be starting Financial Peace University. I took it last summer, but this time Chris will be taking it with me. I'm very excited about it!

Grace has moved into the area... I'm loving having her here so close by. She's working very hard to gain the 'favorite Aunt' status with Elijah.

So much more I could write... but my bed is calling my name. G'night and God bless.