Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Who are you?

Someone is kindly reading my blogs and taking the time to comment too. That someone is Corny110. That persons profile info is blank. So...

Who are you?

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

New pictures

These were taken Sunday. Elijah turned 7 weeks that day. He's growing sooo fast. And so sadly, he has been sick for his first time today. He's had a really dry cough and some nasal congestion. It's not been to severe, but it still breaks my heart. First thing I did was put the prayer cloth on him. He's slept pretty much all evening. Chris worried he won't sleep tonight, but as I reminded Chris: when you're sick, all you want to do is sleep. I know he'll be fine. We've got a vaporizer going in the room with us tonight.
I hope everyone has a safe and most wonderful Thanksgiving!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Seven weeks and a MAJOR first!!!

Yes, my baby is now seven weeks old... and guess what!!! Aaaaaaagh! I'm so excited! HE SLEPT ALL NIGHT LONG!! In fact, he's still sleeping, although I'm pretty sure I hear him starting to wake up. Yes, Chris and I both went to the bassinet and checked him several times to be sure he's still breathing! When I woke up at 2:00 and realized he hadn't been awake yet, I checked on him... and again at 3:00... and again at 5:00... and Chris checked him (twice) at 6:00... and of course, I've checked him two or three times since 7:20 when I got up. I'm so excited and I HOPE this is the beginning of a new and wonderful habit. No, I'm not completely niave... I know there will be nights he'll wake up, but do you blame me for hoping?

Can't stay on here long... but here's a picture(s) of him taken yesterday. I was trying to catch him smiling. We STILL haven't caught him smiling on camera yet! But this is really close!

*Sarah... the reason your camera took multiple pictures (like the one I've posted above) is because it was set on multiple burst. In other words, it takes 16 pictures in a matter of what one? Maybe two seconds? Something like that.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

One day closer...

I am one day closer to turning in my two-week notice!!

I want to say a big THANK YOU to all my friends and family for all the prayers that were said on my behalf today. As you all know, I was really dreading today and going back to work. I know all the prayers helped because today wasn't nearly as bad as I expected. Yes, I cried, multiple times, but I survived. And tears are a language God understands, right?

I had set my alarm for 6:19, but Elijah ended up waking me at 6:02. I hadn't went to bed until after 11:00. Partly due to nerves, partly due to my cluttered house I cleaned before going to bed. I knew waking to a badly cluttered home would not start my morning out well. I was awake with Elijah from 1:58 until 3:00. Needless to say, it was a very short night. I hope to be in bed a little earlier tonight.

I was ready for work by 7:30 this morning, but decided to sit down and hold Elijah for a few minutes while I ate my breakfast and enjoyed my coffee. I made it to work by 8:15. Not bad for the first day back. I only worked until 3:00... so it was a short day for me.

Before leaving for maternity leave, I accepted a new position as Policy Production Manager. I've never been in a supervisory position before and kind of dread the job. I've really been afraid I'd bitten off more than I could handle. I have a new baby, new sleeping schedule, new body (lol), and a new position at work. I kind of wish I could have just went to work and... well, worked. As it is, I started training for the new position. At least that made the day go by quickly. In the end, this position, will be less stressful than the position I was previously working. And in the long run, probably less hours too. For that, I am grateful. Working in property claims during storm season can get pretty hectic and makes for some long days. My new job is pretty much a standard 8-4:30 kind of job.

I also want to say a big THANK YOU to Chris for getting the deer all taken care of. He was off work this afternoon so he finished processing the deer (before heading BACK out to the deer woods). That is such a relief off my mind. Thank you Sweetheart - I love you!

Elijah did well today. I guess he slept a good part of the day. Yesterday we had quite a bit of errands to do, as well as my six week check up. He got very little sleep and therefore, was exhausted today.

Chris is picking Elijah up at 11:30 each day so I can come home on my lunch break and feed him. That's going to be a nice treat. Of course, I cried again, when I saw him on my lunch break. I just feel like such a bad mom for leaving him. I know mom's all around the world do it everyday, but I feel terrible. He was so smiley today... just woke up and was grinning nearly non-stop. That just made my heart melt and break all at the same time. Why did he have to be so precious? When I asked Chris that question, he asked in turn asked me if it would be eaiser for me to leave Elijah if he were crying his heart out. Of course, my answer was "no"... but leaving those smiles behind sure were hard to do. Elijah has been sleeping since we got home. I had to just spend some time holding him for a while...

I need to get busy. Johnny and AJ are coming for the weekend. I wish my washer was fixed so I'd be able to get the laundry caught up, but oh well... I need to get busy instead of just sitting here...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Anybody have a hole?

Don't read this post. I'm whining.

I'm exhausted (spent the ENTIRE day in Joplin, got home just in time to leave for church)
My washer has NO spin option now and there are three loads of laundry waiting to be washed (not counting the clothes we wore today)
The insurance adjuster didn't call until after 5:30 - meaning, I'll probably have to deal with him tomorrow... on my first day back to work
My refrigerator has two deer in it waiting to be processed and frozen
And on top of all this... I have to go to work tomorrow.

I really wish I could find a hole to crawl in.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

So much to thank Him for

I can't speak for anyone else, but I really enjoyed the fellowship with the church ladies today. A few of us had lunch at Mary's Cafe' then those that were able, came to my house to visit. I really appreciate those that took the time to come and the visiting we had. I attend church with some of the best ladies in the world; I'm blessed to call them my 'sisters in Christ.'

After everyone left, I was talking to my sister-in-law on the phone and Chris 'beeped' in on call waiting. He was calling to let me know his truck had caught fire while he was at work. He was walking outside and happened to notice smoke near his truck. A second look made him realize the smoke was coming from under his hood. He popped the hood and found it was blazing away. He ran in the lumberyard and grabbed a new fire extingusher and was able to put the fire out. We're 99.9% sure it was the cruise control switch that Ford recently recalled. We'd gotten the recall notice but hadn't gotten the truck taken into the dealership. Anyways, the truck is still drivable and seems to run fine, but Chris thinks the brakes are damaged as well.

We're so thankful it happened at work. If it had happened at home, we already know (from our previous fire) that our garage is pretty air tight and we may not have noticed the fire until it was to late. If it had happened while Chris was hunting or on a parking lot somewhere, he may have just had to stand back and watch it burn. As it was, he was near a fire extinguisher, the damages are minor, and no one was injured. There are many, many worse case scenarios that this story could have ended with. The more internet research I do, the more I realize how blessed we are.

What I don't know is if Ford will cover the damages since we did not have the switch replaced when we were notified. They may determine we are partially at fault for not taking our own action after being notified of the hazard. It's at times like these I'm thankful for my background in insurance. I've already turned the claim in to our insurance company and I pray they have a sufficient subrogation department. It's AIG... one of the nations biggest insurance companies, I'm sure they can handle it. Oh, and I can't forget, this is our third comprehensive auto claim in two years... All three of them damage resulting from a fire. Well... here's another situation I plan to sit back and let God handle for me. No sense in worrying about it...

Instead, I'm going to focus on what He's already done and how He's already protected us.

Thank you Father!

Yahoo blog

I'm missing the girls over at Yahoo! 360... as bad as that site has gotten, I miss the fellowship we had there. I've been going over and keeping up with the updates on Linda and I'm just amazed at what God has done in her life. She is going to have quite a testimony to tell once she is release from that hospital. The doctors are just scratching their heads. I believe they will have to testify of the power of prayer!

Susan posted this quote on 360. I know she was using it to reference Linda's situation, but I'm applying it to my own situation. (I'm sure everyone is getting tired of hearing me talk about it, but it's a major part of my life right now... this too shall pass).

FAITH.COMETH.BY.HEARING_ CHICAGO.IL SATURDAY_ 54-0320 E-27 Now, hope will agree with the Bible. Hope will say, "It's True." Hope will say, "I believe every bit of It. I believe that that's the Word of God. And I--I--I believe that God will keep His promise." Hope believes all of that. But hope then says, "Now, I believe that God will heal, but look at my condition." Now, faith don't look at that. Faith comes around, "I don't care nothing about conditions. God said so, and it's mine." You see? Faith's burly. As I once said, "Faith has hair on the chest. When it stands up and pulls its big muscles out, everything else vanishes away." Just takes--flies away. When faith really takes a hold, nothing else stands. ~Willam Branham

Monday, November 17, 2008

Busy days...

I had, originally, planned to rest these next couple days before I head back into the work force. (A temporary situation - by faith, I'm believing) But resting doesn't seem to be in my future.

I'd wanted to host a time for the sisters at church to fellowship at my house. I'd put it off and put it off, but the past couple weeks, Brother Eric preached a couple of excellent sermons. God was speaking through him, encouraging me to go ahead and host the fellowship. I made up my mind yesterday to go ahead and send an email invitation. I've had great response! I'm really excited too. We've not had a ladies get-together for several months.

I'd also wanted to give my house a good cleaning before heading back to work. Well, the ladies fellowship has kept me motivated to get the cleaning done today. Not only that, I had 7 loads of laundry to do. (I normally wash 3-4 loads) The frustrating part is that on the last load (denium) my washer decided it wouldn't spin out the clothes. I was dreading hand squeezing those jeans out! But Chris messed with it and found the spin cycle worked if he used a different setting (the delicate setting!). Thank the Lord I didn't have to wring it all out by hand. Anyways, all the laundry is done except for that last load that is finally in the dryer.

So today was cleaning, tomorrow is a little more cleaning, minor baking (brownies and cookies), and the ladies fellowship. Wednesday I've got to get the check book updated and then I'm headed to Joplin. I have some errands to run and my 6 week checkup too. Then comes the dreaded day... Thursday is back to work. I don't even want to think about it.

Brother Eric, after preaching Sunday morning, came to my seat and prayed for me. I was really given a peace about going back to work. I don't know that it will be any easier, but I have been given peace. I know God's at work in my situation. Not only that, my sister-in-law has been calling me the past couple days to encourage me and to help boost my faith. I really appreciate all the prayers so many people have prayed for me. I know it really helps me to know I'm not the only one praying.

Elijah is 6 weeks old as of yesterday. He's growing and changing so fast. He's smiling quite a bit now. Today he's not slept very much. Between that and all the gas he's had (Mama wasn't very smart with her food choices this weekend) he's been very fussy today. I wish I could take his pain for him and make it all better. He's so precious and sweet, even when he's fussy. Daddy is taking a turn with him right now. Chris is so patient with Elijah even when he's fussing and unhappy. He just keeps talking to Elijah and playing with him. It's working. Elijah has stopped fussing for the moment and is just hanging on to every word Chris is saying. It's so sweet. I'm so thankful my baby has a great Daddy.

I'm still working on the coupons and getting better grocery deals. This past week, I was able to use about $6 in coupons. No, not that great of a deal, but it's a start. I told Chris that couponing is kind of like a treasure hunt. I went down my grocery list and then to the websites of the brand. I printed off quite a few coupons just by doing that.

Gotta go... Elijah's starving... or so he thinks ;-)

Friday, November 14, 2008

Pictures and thoughts

This is what I found a few mornings ago when I went to check on Elijah. He wasn't fussing or making a sound. I have no idea how long he had been awake, but there he was, wide eyed and looking so precious. My heart melted. I love cuddling in bed with him - he's so sweet in the mornings. I think he took after Momma and will be a morning person. He mostly sleeps in his bassinet - unless he's not sleeping well, then I put him in bed with me. Please - no comments about the hazards of belly sleeping...

Steven James Miller - my brothers adorable baby. Until this past weekend, I hadn't seen the little guy in a while. He is not a fat baby, but is s o l i d just like his Daddy. He has such a happy, bubbly personality. He's so precious.

My brother and I with our little ones. Timothy said "Ha ha, I beat ya." I told him I didn't know we were in a competition... and although he may have had his baby first, I had the cutest baby! LOL I don't really understand the beard - it has something to do with a weight loss competition at work. Since Steven was born, Timothy has lost about 50 lbs. (Steven is almost 7 months old) Timothy said he was going to shave when the competition was over.
When Mikah saw Timothy's beard, she wouldn't go near Timothy. He was trying to hug her, but she didn't want to go near him. I finally convinced her to touch his beard... and then convinced her to pull it - to see if it was really attached. She giggled so much! She thought that was hilarious!
One last picture of my little man. This picture really shows off the shape of his chin. With my wide jaw structure and Daddy's chin, Elijah has a perfect little heart shaped chin and a dimple in the middle to boot! I think it's adorable. He's growing like a weed. Last night he went 9 hours between feedings. I was shocked! Of course, I was sound asleep and had no idea it had been that long until he woke me up. I knew he was starving by then. Even though he was starving, he had all kinds of smiles for me.

I am asking for your prayers this week. I've really not told anyone the depth of the struggle I've been going through knowing that I must go back to work next week. Depression has a whole new meaning to me. I keep telling myself that it is my hormones, but I know, and God knows, I have been battling a much larger, spiritual battle over this as well. I know He will provide a way someday for me to stay at home; until then, I will somehow cope. I want to scream, cry, pull my hair out, etc. but I know none of it will change anything or do anyone any good. Instead, I probably spend to much time holding and rocking Elijah... even if he's asleep. I don't really know why I'm sharing this with you all now, but it's on my mind (again) and I thought it might help to get some of this off my chest.
On a happier note, here's a video of Mikah's birthday party. Watch her and listen to that precious giggle:

Monday, November 10, 2008

Elijah update and more

Elijah had his checkup today. He's 10 pounds now and is 22" long. The doctor said he's right where he should be on the charts. I was surprised when he said last month Elijah was slightly underweight for his height. I thought he was a big boy, but I guess his the 'experts' say otherwise. Anyways, he's back on the charts again. Either way, I know he's healthy and doing fine and thats really all that matters to me. He did so well... I was a little apprehensive because he hates being stripped down so bad. But he just sat on my lap and cuddled up to me. The doctor paid me a compliment; he said he could tell I was doing a great job with Elijah. I dread next months visit; we start his immunizations...

He's still not smiling a lot, but does from time to time. Makes the times he does smile so special. Daddy's playing with him right now and Elijah must have liked the game 'cause he just smiled. It's so sweet!

I'm following several 'frugal' and coupon blogs. I don't have a huge coupon stash yet, but I am quite proud of myself for the deal I was able to get on Friday. I had to re-order checks. We use and as I was completing the order, I noticed there was a place to enter a discount code. I went to and found a coupon code to get 20% my total purchase! I was so proud! I wouldn't have thought I could have found a discount for checks, but it was there! Yay me!

I spent the past weekend at my sister's (Amy) house. Chris was working on the church (the brothers poured a new concrete pad) so I decided to head on down to Amy's. She had Mikah's birthday party yesterday as it was Mikah's fourth birthday party. It was cute watching the kids interact and seeing Mikah's excitement about her party and gifts. I wish I could have stayed later last night, but I knew Chris was missing Elijah (and me too, I hope!) Thanks Amy for the hospitality!

I realized today that I am feeling much more like myself. My incision only hurts on occasion; mainly if I 'over-do'. I have a lot more energy and just overall am feeling better. It's so nice!

Well, I'm getting off here and heading to bed... it's early, but we had a busy day today.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

A long blog about a lot of nothing and little of something

Here is the link to the slide show of Chris and I preparing for Elijah. I got to thinking this morning that I never posted these pictures (not that I can remember anyways). So here are the "Before/During" and the "After" pictures of his nursery.


Elijah was "officially" one month old yesterday. Kind of depressing, but exciting all at the same time. He's growing so fast and I know these days have gone with the wind. I'll never get them back. I wish I could just stop time for a day or more. He's so precious to me. This morning, he woke up and gave me a big smile. Talk about stealing Momma's heart all over again. He ended up giving me two smiles, but there's nothing like that first smile. Poor Chris, he's only heard about the smiles, but hasn't gotten to see one yet. I know he'd love to.

I was thinking about all the changes that Elijah has brought to our home. Everyone told us our lives would "change" But no one ever pinpointed exactly what would change. (Kind of like Obama - change is coming! But WHAT change? LOL) And they all finished the sentence with "but it's worth it!" So here's just a few changes - in case anyone ever asks me...

Diapers - they don't stop after one or two changes. Get prepared. And who decided on the standard height of a changing table? I'm short, but my changing table kills my back. I have to slightly bend to reach Elijah - by the end of the diaper change, I need a chiropractor! But I digress. Oh... and has anyone ever told you that yellow poo and light blue clothing = green stains?

Sleep - rather the lack of sleep. No one actually told me that I would get used to only 5-6 hours of sleep a night - on a good night. They also didn't tell me the 5-6 hours are broken up by multiple feedings and/or fussiness. They all said "Sleep when baby sleeps" but they failed to mention how you must let everything else (housework, bills, dinner, etc) in order to get the sleep during baby's sleep.

Breastfeeding - I thought I had mentally prepared myself for the huge commitment of breastfeeding. But, it really hadn't sunk in that once you start, there's no stopping. It's round the clock, often demanded, without any patience for your own missed dinners and loss of bathroom breaks.

Vocal abilities - no one mentioned I would no longer be capable of holding a normal conversation. I now speak in a high pitched, sing-songy, voice and my words end in "y". Example: "Hey there Buddy... do you need your diapy changed? Let me get a diapy and the wipeys."

Clumsiness - no one mentioned how clumsy I would become. It started while I was still pregnant. I'd loose my balance occasionally. No big deal; I was dealing with a huge belly. But I'm not pregnant now and I've become an overall clumsy, klutzy person. I walk funny to keep my balance. I'm constantly dropping things. Perhaps I'm now called to be a clown?

So before anyone gets the big idea that "Nettie's not happy" or "Nettie's having issues" please re-read this and see the humor. I'm only teasing. Do I agree with all those people who said my life would change? Yes. My life has changed. Do I agree that it's all worth it? Yes. It's so worth it. Being a parent is probably life's biggest challenge - but also one of life's most rewarding challenges. I see changes in me and changes in Chris. But having Elijah has made our family complete. (Not saying there aren't more children in our future - I'm just hoping they're not in our NEAR future!) And just for the record... I wouldn't change a thing except the C-section. I know the Lord is in control of ALL things, but I would love to have been able to experience this without the C-section. (Why? 'Cause I'm a big wimp - I don't 'do' pain!)

There is one more thing nobody fully warned me about: love. No one told me I'd be so head-over-heals in love with this new little person that I wouldn't mind the lack of sleep or the diapers or the commitment to breastfeed. No one told me that my heart would break when his tummy hurts from gas. Or how the thought of leaving him to go back to work could send me spiraling into the deepest of depressions. Or how I'd be so afraid to miss one minute of his life because I might miss something new. Or how my heart would nearly burst with pride and the love I feel for him. Yes, my life has changed, and, thank God, will never be the same again.

A quick story about Elijah - I got quite a kick out of him this morning. I think most of you know Elijah and I are sleeping in the guest room to let Daddy get more rest. It's a temporary situation. Anyways, last night Elijah was a bit restless so I had ended up letting him sleep with me. This morning at his 6:00 feeding, he ended up falling back to sleep instead of finishing eating. I put him back to bed with hopes to get another hour of sleep. Well, in a few minutes he started waking up looking to finish eating. I sorta propped myself up on my elbow/hand to watch him and to tend to him. He wiggled and grunted himself over to me (half asleep the entire time) and put his little mouth up to my elbow! He didn't root or try to latch on, just put his mouth against my skin and fell right back to sleep. I guess he just needed that connection more than anything.

BTW: Happy birthday to my cousin, Amber! I hadn't forgot you, it just takes me longer to get things posted these days.

I hope you're not tired of hearing about my man. If you are, to bad. LOL

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

So disgusted

So I had Elijah's picture taken at Sears. Big mistake. First of all, the "coupon" I got in the mail ended up being a hoax - in the sense that you had to read all the fine print and wasn't worth it. None of the deals were worth my time driving down there. I was really wishing I had went to Penny's instead. Or even better - called Jamye - the woman who took my maternity pictures. I was trying to save money and this is what I got.
Here's the original photo. I was told the picture would be centered, cropped, etc. They did tell me they may not be able to perfectly center it as far as the top and bottom, but the sides would be centered.

However, this is what I picked up today. Yes, his head is CUT OFF on the right!!! I'm so aggravated. I started to say something there in Sears but I was feelin bad for the girl at the counter. She was the only one working as the photographer had not showed up. She had all kinds of customers waiting for pictures to be taken and picked up. I felt bad for her and decided since it wasn't her fault anyways, I would just contact the corporate office. I'll see what they say tomorrow.
Our day has been pretty hectic and Elijah's not had much sleep. He's pretty fussy tonight and Daddy has been doing his best to make him happy. It's just not happening so I'm getting off here to help out.
More later.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Long days...

Whew... today has been a long day. Elijah slept great last night - and so did I. I woke up feeling so rested. I actually got 7 hours of sleep last night and felt so great this morning. I was feeling super motivated too.

Elijah and I woke up about 7:00 this morning. He never did go back to sleep after he ate. I thought he'd go to sleep after after the next feeding. Nope. Still didn't. Well... okay, I take that back. He would fall asleep. I would put him down, and within 20 minutes he'd be awake. I tried everything. Patting him, giving him his binky back, etc. Everything. He'd end up crying his little eyes out. I'm not sure if he wasn't feeling well or what the deal was. I felt bad - bad for me, bad for him.

I did have a relatively productive day in spite of it. I was able to get ALL the laundry washed, dried, folded and put away. I had also wanted to get the floors all swept and mopped as well as the bathrooms cleaned. I didn't get that done, but I was able to get a bunch of other things done. I won't complain. My main concern was my little fussy man.

He gave me quite a scare too. I was holding/rocking him and his pacifier fell out. There was dried blood around his mouth and on his pacifier. Talk about my heart stopping! He has tiny little blisters on his bottom lip from nursing. The only thing I could figure out is that one of those blisters started bleeding. There didn't seem to be any blood on the inside of his mouth, and I couldn't see any fresh blood - it was just dried blood. He's not had any more since then.

I'm excited to see so many coming over and trying out blogger. I don't know how the others are liking it, but I'm pretty sure I'm finished with 360. This is SO much easier. Don't get me wrong... I still check 360 and read, but I've given up on trying to comment. To much frustration to mess with it.
Well... I'm headed to the tub and then to bed. I've got another long day tomorrow - but for completely different reasons. I have a car appointment (tires rotated, balanced, etc) and a chiropractor appointment.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Four weeks old (tomorrow)

Yes, tomorrow my little man will be four weeks old. Where has the time gone? It seems it was just yesterday I was still carrying him inside me. He's changed so much in the past four weeks. It seems a lot of the changes have happened just in the past week. I can really tell a difference in him. The baby book (What to Expect the First Year) says babies first growth spirt is at three weeks and I believe them. I don't know what he weighs (I hope to find out today) but I can tell he's not only gained weight, but he seems longer too. This picture was taken this morning - can you see he's getting a double chin? He's also getting tiny rolls on his upper thighs and around his arms.

He is still trying to learn to smile. You can see his blue eyes light up and one corner of his mouth tries so hard to turn up. It is so precious to see him respond with his attempt to smile at me or Chris when we're talking to him. He totally focuses on Chris and I's faces when we talk to him. His eyes are still dark blue. I hope they stay that color. They look just like blueberries.

Since day one, he's known Chris' voice from across the room. When Chris talks to him, he just stops and listens to Chris. Chris can calm him down so well too. It always amazes me to watch Elijah with his daddy. He will definitely be Daddy's boy. Chris is already telling him about the hunting they'll be doing later in life.

He's also doing really well with holding up his head. He'll just hold it up and look around for the longest time. Especially if you're holding him on your shoulder. He still needs to work on it while laying on his tummy, but that's Mommy's fault for not laying him on his tummy more.

He doesn't cry during diaper changes - as much. He still will on occasion, especially if he's hungry. But for the most part, he will just lay there and let you change him. He still doesn't like his clothes changed or baths. Whew! He still gets so upset... especially at bath time. I love dressing him in all the different outfits. Right now he's slowly, but surely, starting to grow into the 0-3 month outfits. The past four weeks he's only worn the "newborn" size. It's like he's got a whole new wardrobe now that he's entering the bigger sizes. However, there are still several 0-3 month things he can't wear. I guess it's the difference in brands of clothing.

He still has all of his hair. I was hoping he wouldn't loose it and thus far, it doesn't appear he's going to. He has lost all of the hair on his right ear, but the left ear still has a tuft of hair growing on it. He has two major cowlicks on his forehead. They meet in the middle of his forehead and go opposite directions. I sense some hair combing challenges may be in our future. His hair stays pretty greasy because people (me and Daddy included) can't keep our hands out of his hair. It is so soft and fluffy after it's been washed. I kinda wish it would stay that way all the time.

I think he's going to be a morning person. He's so sweet and responsive after he's been fed and changed in the mornings. He'll just 'talk' to you (grunts for now) and that's when he tries to smile the most too. I love waking up next to him too. It takes him about 15 minutes of stretching, grunting, groaning, and eye rolling before he finally is awake. If he's in bed next to me, I'll just stay there and watch him. It's the sweetest thing.

I want to remember and cherish every moment I have with him. He's the most beautiful and precious gift from God. Truly he is a miracle. I have asked myself and Chris how we could fall in love so much with such a little person in such a short amount of time. I don't have the answer yet, but I'm so glad God saw fit to give us our little man, Elijah. Chris and I pray for him every day, multiple times a day. We both want what is right and good in Elijah's life. I want to bring him up knowing about the Lord and to see him grow up and serve the Lord with all his heart. I know that is the desire of every Mother's heart.

Elijah - Mommy and Daddy love you very much. Someday, when you're older, I hope you look back and read these blogs (and the scrapbook I hope to start someday) and know that you were loved so much.
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