Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Self discipline

I'm now two weeks and two days closer to my dream of staying home with my babies!!!  Even though it seems the days are dragging, I know, it will be here before I know it.  I've been mentally preparing myself for the self discipline I know I'm going to need once I am at home full time.  After working 12+ years of our marriage, I know it would be so easy to become a couch potato, an Internet junky, a TV bug, etc. etc.  After all, instead of having a few precious minutes to clean house (or all those other wonderful motherly/house-wifey chores), I will have all day.  I'm not crazy - I see how easy it will be to allow myself the luxury of staying in bed, or other fun things.

Let me first explain one thing: I'm married to a Mr. Command (taken from Created to Be His Help Meet).  I love my Mr. Command dearly.  He's a wonderful provider, a great father, and loves God.  What more could a girl ask for?  He says that he knows there will be days the house won't be clean, dinner won't be ready, and the kids will all be screaming.  He's right.  There will be those days.  But he's the type of guy that can excuse one day.  Day two of this scenario won't set well with him.  He likes to see things done - whatever the goal is for the day, he will accomplish it and expects the same for those around him.  So as you can see, I'm very much aware that I could get by with a day or two of enjoying life, but then I'll have to face the reality of it all.

I'm trying to gain back some of the ground I've lost over the past three years.  Since I've had Elijah, I know my house doesn't stay spotless like it used to.  (I've even had people make comments something like "wow, your house actually gets dirty?")  My laundry doesn't stay caught up.  It's pretty common to see a mountain of clean laundry sitting at the dining room table.  And the list goes on and on.  So how do I gain back this ground without feeling like I'm working non-stop?  Besides - I'm pregnant - and really don't feel like just killing myself with extra work.

I've decided to go back to some of the FLYlady basics.  I have used her techniques in the past and had remarkable results.  I let it go because, believe it or not, I tend to be a perfectionist.  If I miss a mission, I think I've got to get it caught up the next day.  If I don't get the zone completely cleaned, then I try to cover two zones at once. All the perfectionist things that FlyLady tells you NOT to do. Ugh.  So I've got my daily checklist of chores.  Last night I wasn't able to complete everything on the list, but I'm telling myself that it's okay.  Move on.  Today is a new day.

What other techniques and suggestions are there?  I'm open for improvement.  Yes, I know that I won't be a perfect housewife - that's not my goal.  My goal is to simply stay on top of the basics.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

No worries!

This morning I woke up wondering where we're going to fit everything in our little house after our new baby arrives.  The guest bedroom doubles as storage room and I have no idea where we're going to put everything when we move Elijah to that room.  I don't know why this suddenly popped in my mind this morning.  I hadn't thought a thing about it until then. 

There are times when discontentment creeps in and I wish for a larger house.  Then reality hits and I know how hard it must be to keep up with a big house!  Having another baby will make our home seem smaller, but it's so cozy and cute. We've worked hard on this house - it would be really tough to let it go.

Now don't get the idea we're moving - 'cause we've not talked about it!  I'm just rambling and thinking out loud.

Elijah is quite excited about being a big brother.  He frequently asks about the baby wondering when the baby will be here.  He usually proceeds to tell me how he's going to hold the baby and be so careful.  The other day he found my iPhone pregnancy app.  It has pictures of the baby as it develops.  He brought it to me with a very solemn face; "Mom, what is that?"  I mentally debated for a few seconds on how to answer.  I finally bit the bullet and explained it is the baby.  I showed him the progress as the baby grows and told him that Mommy's belly is going to get really big.  I explained I have to go to the doctor to get the baby out.  He took the phone in his hands and stared at the picture for quite a long time.  Finally he looks up and says "Mom, does your belly hurt with that ball in it?"  I told him no but he was quite concerned.  He asked me several times if my belly was okay.  Since then, he's asked to "see the baby".  He'll just look at the latest picture as if trying to memorize it.  I think he's going to be a great big brother. 

I've also explained that after the baby gets here, Mommy will be staying home with him.  He is very excited about this and asks nearly every day if the baby is here yet.  When I tell him no, he then tells me "but I want her here now!"  Poor guy might have a hard time waiting out these 9 months!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Miracles Still Happen - Part 2

A few weeks back, I posted Miracles Still Happen; the story of the power of a simple prayer. I wanted to give an update about my back. It is 100% better. Nearly every day, as I go about my daily tasks, I am reminded of how my back used to respond to a simple duties I would be doing. For example: I used to guard how I stood when I cleaned the bathtub, bent to pick up toys, or even my shoes. I no longer feel the need to stand a certain way while doing these simple tasks!! Even sitting certain ways affected my back. NO MORE! The healing is, no doubt, miraculous! I am so thankful God extended His healing hand and touched my back!

So – in other news, the end of October, I had a sneaking suspicion I was pregnant. But then again, I’ve played a lot of mind games with myself in the past. I would be a few days late, take a pregnancy test, only to start a few hours later. This time, I decided to beat myself at the mind game and get the pregnancy test done and over with! Except… it came back positive!

I hyperventilated.

Even though I thought I wanted another child, to have one coming unexpectedly was a big shock to the system! I hid out in the bathroom for a while debating on how I was going to tell Chris. I really thought he would be upset. I finally decided to face it head on and tell him.

He didn’t believe me. At first. Then I think the look on my face registered with him and he knew I was serious. Needless to say, neither of us got much sleep that night.

On Monday (10/31/11) morning, I went to work but kept to myself in my cube. I was afraid to face anyone because I thought they too would know by the look on my face. Plus, I was still dealing with it. I knew financially we couldn’t afford for me to stay at home yet. That was pretty upsetting. Plus knowing Chris didn’t get much sleep caused me to feel he was upset which in turn upset me even more. Babies are supposed to be a time of joy – but I wasn’t feeling any joy yet.

Monday at noon, I went home and was met by Chris who was beaming! His smile was so big and contagious! He looked at me and said “I’ve been pushing some numbers” Of course, I didn’t give him time to finish his sentence before thinking “he just means that we can afford this baby”. Instead, he finished the sentence with “and you should be able to stay at home this time”. WHAT??? Did I hear that right??? He went on to explain there would be several (major) changes that need to be made, but by God’s grace, we could do it.

WOW. Now I’m getting excited about the baby! Or wait – is it excitement that I’ll be staying at home?

We told Elijah our good news. He was very excited to be a big brother. We let him call Nanny and Granna to tell them the good news. He was so excited to say “I’m gonna be a big brudder”! Of course, both grandmothers hesitated to believe him but were very excited when Chris and I confirmed the good news! He is still so excited about the baby and talks of how he’s going to hold the new baby and “be very careful”.

That same Monday evening, we decided to visit Chris’ parents for a few minutes. As we were getting ready to pull out of the drive, Chris’ headlight switch broke – for good. It had been messed up for a while but he’d been limping by because these switches are an $80 part. I assured him that’s what our emergency fund is for. You can’t go without a head light switch! Guess what? Chris got online and found the part for $31 including S&H! Thank you Lord!

Tuesday night, Chris shot a very large buck! It was a beautiful 12-point buck that had a drop tine. If you’re like me, you have no idea of the importance or rarity of a drop tine, but take my word for it: a drop tine is a big deal. Chris was so thankful to have shot this magnificent deer. And to make things even better, the deer dropped when Chris shot it. For hunters this is a big thing – no searching the woods for a deer – in the dark! In addition, not only was this a beautiful deer, we harvested about 35 pounds of meat from this deer. Another big blessing – thank you Lord!

On Thursday, Chris’ friend and co-worker turned in his notice. Although Chris will miss Andy tremendously (they’d worked together for about 10 years), Chris has been given overtime. This is an additional $350-$500 per month! Another BIG blessing – thank you Lord!

All these blessings were a confirmation to Chris and I that he’d made the right decision. It was if our Heavenly Father was saying, “See? Trust me and I will provide for you.” We’re humbled by His faithfulness to us and so excited by the upcoming changes in our lives.

Sunday, our pastor spoke an amazing message on how God will “set us up”. He will allow things in our lives to see our reactions. Are we going to trust Him completely? How will we react to the test? With heavy heart or with a heart of thanksgiving and praise? It was one more confirmation to me that God heard my prayers and would provide for us if we’d only believe in Him. At the end of this amazing service, our pastor’s wife came to the front of the church and requested the church pray for Chris and I for the upcoming months. Their prayers meant so much to me.

I have NO DOUBT that God will work out EVERY detail. Several years ago, while praying about staying home, I heard the audible voice of God speak “I will provide for you, I will make a way.” I have His spoken word – why should I doubt? As of now, the plan is that I’ll work up to delivery, but I leave this decision in the hands of God. We’ve still got 9 months ahead of us and a lot can happen in that time frame.

My heart is overflowing! God has been so good to me.

(Chris hasn’t wanted me to put this on FB yet, but I wanted to go ahead and blog because I know the details I want to remember will start fading from my ever shortening memory.)

Saturday, October 29, 2011


This morning I am giving our room a thorough cleaning. I had put the deer antlers on the floor while I cleaned Chris' gun cabinet. Elijah picked 'em right up and said "shoot me Mama, shoot me"! Haha! Love that boys sense of humor!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Elijah's Words

Last weekend Elijah and I are driving along (to get take out: Gebhardts chicken!) when he asked me "Mom, what's twice?"  I tried to explain it means that if you go to Wal-Mart two times it means you went twice.  If you brush your teeth two times, you brushed your teeth twice.  I gave several examples but I wasn't sure he was getting it.

He then asked "Mom, what does duddenhopper mean?"  I know I'm not remembering the actual word he said, but it was definitely a made up word.  I told him I had no idea what it meant and asked where he heard the word.  In a very indignant tone, he stated "Mom, it means: going to Wal-Mart".  Ha ha!  Love that boy!

Add that word to your vocabulary!!!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Lessons In Prayer

After Elijah's prayer for my back last week, I recognized an opportunity to teach him about God's power to answer our prayers.  On Tuesday evening, Elijah became car sick on the way home.  As I sat holding him, I offered to pray for him.  He responded "No!" I then reminded him of how he'd prayed for Mommy's back and how Mommy is all better.  He then changed his response to "please pray, Mommy!"  Of course I did - keeping it simple as he did.

He woke up Wednesday morning feeling much better.  Again, I reminded him that God had answered prayer.

Wednesday evening, he wasn't feeling well again.  I offered again to pray for him, to which he responded "Nanny already prayed for me."  I assurred him Jesus answers Nanny's prayers too.  He fell asleep within minutes but when he woke up, was feeling much better. 

While I don't want him getting the idea that God always instantly answers prayer, I do want to seize the opportunity to teach him of the importance and the power in prayer.  I would love suggestions on how anyone else has taught their child(ren) about prayer.

About my back: it is still so much better.  I'm still amazed by how much better it is.  Thank you, Lord!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Miracles Still Happen!

13 And they brought young children to him, that he should touch them: and his disciples rebuked those that brought them.

14 But when Jesus saw it, he was much displeased, and said unto them, Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not: for of such is the kingdom of God.
15 Verily I say unto you, whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child, he shall not enter therein.
16 And he took them up in his arms, put his hands upon them, and blessed them.

~From Mark 10

Last Wednesday, I knew my back was out. It’s an old injury – one I recognize easily – especially since it had been bothering me since mid-August and had gradually become worse. I went to the chiropractor and was adjusted. He’s treated this injury for years and knows exactly how to make it “all better”.

However, in spite of the adjustment, Thursday morning I could barely get out of bed. Slowly but surely I was able to get up and decided to sit in the floor to have my morning devotions. (My couch is rather deep and can be difficult to get up from it – even when your back is feeling fine!) As soon as I got the on the floor, I knew I’d made a very bad mistake and attempted to get up. While getting up, I twisted wrong, heard my back make a sickening ‘pop’ and I about went down. I was in tears, thought I was going to pass out, but managed to get up. I climbed back in bed while trying to decide if I should get to work. (By the way, my chiropractor is closed on Thursdays)

Normally, I would simply call in to work. However, I am out of Paid Time Off. Being a salaried employee, I wasn’t sure what the protocol is when a salaried employee misses work without any PTO. Not knowing where I stood, I made myself get out of bed and with help, managed to get ready for work. I worked about half the day (and cleared things with my boss) before heading home.

As I lay there in pain, I was thinking of the testimonies you hear from foreign countries; limbs being restored, the dead brought back to life, etc. I realized they do not have a chiropractor or an emergency room only minutes away. Literally, their life depends on prayer and their faith in God. I was reminded of the teachings of Jesus, admonishing us to become like little children.

I called my mother-in-law and informed her I was at home; I asked her to bring Elijah home whenever she could. It was about naptime and Elijah is now old enough to cover the basics himself. I wasn’t too worried about it. When he showed up, he and I lay down to take a nap. He asked me about the monsters – which I assured him, again, do not exist and Jesus watches over us. Just as I was about to drift off, I hear his sweet little voice lifted in prayer, asking Jesus to keep us safe from the monsters. He finished his prayer by saying:

“Jesus, I ‘axs’ you to make Mommy bitter [better]. Make Mommy bitter. Amen.”

Of course, I tear-ed up and thanked him for his prayer. It was completely voluntary on his behalf and so sweet.

Late Thursday afternoon, a dear friend came to the house and gave my back a great massage. It really helped my muscles to relax and I felt better over all, in spite of the pain.

About 2:30 AM, I woke up and was in horrible pain. I made my way to the bathroom and was frustrated to tears by the pain and inability to move normally.

At 7:00 AM, a phone call woke me up. At first I didn’t move as I realized I was in NO PAIN! My first thought was the lack of pain was due to how I was laying. I decided I should get up. When I got up: NO PAIN! By now, I was thinking, “I’ve just had a miracle!” As I walked to the phone: NO PAIN! I could still feel a slight catch in my back, but NO PAIN! No muscle pain. No back pain. I was feeling so much better, I thought about going to work. However, I’d already worked out the arrangement with my boss and had been given instructions not to come in. Because of the little catch in my back, I decided to go ahead and see the chiropractor. When he adjusted me, he said “your back adjusted easier today than it has in a long time – I think it will hold this time.” I knew I was healed!

Later, I was reminded of my little boy’s prayer. And my Heavenly Father also reminded me of that child like faith I need in my life. Wow! I’m so humbled that God would use something as significant as my back pain, and the simple 12-word, faith-filled prayer of my little boy to teach me a lesson on faith. Such a contrast and so powerful!!

Thank you GOD!

“There’s power in prayer, power to spare!
All that you’ll ever need is waiting right there.
A few words, child’s faith, then good-bye despair!
Oh there’s power, so much power!
There’s power in prayer!”

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

What a nice evening to remember...

First we walked to the library and checked out "Polar Express" and a Maisy book. After we arrived home, we made a "special surprise" for Daddy (apple pie) while we talked about how much we love Daddy. After dinner, (home made chicken strips) we're now cuddled in our pj's watching "the choo-choo".

Yep, it's the little things in life that I want to remember the rest of my life!

Beautiful Autumn Day

Today is a beautiful autumn day!!  The trees are really starting to change, the sun is shining, and the cool temps prove that winter is on it's way.  I believe the forecasted high is 65 degrees!  At noon, it was a chilly 57 degrees!  I wish I were outside today, but I must work...

Last night was super productive for me.  Busy, yes, but it was satisfying to sit down at the end of the evening and know something had been accomplished (on a Monday night no less!).  I was able to clean my bathroom, clean the kitchen, help (a little) with Chris' deer processing, plus was able to get most of the laundry folded and put away.  Whew!  It is satisfying to tackle these things - now if I can keep the motiviation going tonight!  It's my goal to have the weekend free...

I've been trying to take advantage of the beautiful weather we've been having and allowing Elijah to ride his 4-wheeler for a while each evening.  He loves to ride that thing!  It was so windy and cold last night that he didn't get to ride for long.  I need to post pictures of him riding.  Even though he's had it nearly two weeks, he still calls it his "bran-new four-leer". 

I'm missing the ladies retreat this year.  I thought I was okay with it, but as the date gets closer, I'm realizing how hard it is for me to miss it.  I gotta put on my big girl 'pannies' and deal with it!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Proverbs 31 & Titus 2

It seems you hear a lot about the Proverbs 31 woman. Her price is above rubies and her family sings her praises. It is my hearts desire to be like her. I continually press toward that goal.

Recently though, I’ve been reminded of the 8 “Commandments” to Godly women, found in Titus 2:

1. to be sober
2. to love their husbands
3. to love their children
4. to be discreet
5. chaste
6. keepers at home
7. good
8. obedient to their own husbands

It’s followed up with: …that the word of God be not blasphemed. Wow. God help me be the woman and wife You created me to be. Blasphemy is a dangerous thing.

3 The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things;

4 That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children,

5 To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.

Those close to me know I’ve been reading (and re-reading) Created to Be A Help Meet by Debi Pearl. That book has changed my life – and my outlook on my husband. I encourage every married woman to read this book. Part of it is so hard to read; I cried and at times became defensive. “I am NOT like that!” Only to hear a still small voice say “You aren’t?” Somebody obviously knows me better than I know myself. Nothing is hidden from Him.

My favorite part of the book is how Mrs. Pearl will point out something and I’m sitting there thinking “That’s not in the Bible.” But the very next sentence is the scripture reference that shows me where it’s found in the Bible. Mrs. Pearl constantly and consistently refers you back to Scripture. These are not HER words – they’re the Word of God. How can I argue with Him?

Again, I encourage you to read this book. But I should also warn you: it may be difficult to read. If you choose to read it, do so with an open heart and mind.

Debi Pearl doesn’t have a clue who I am and won’t be reading this blog entry. I get no recognition for promoting her wonderful book. You can buy it off her website or through Amazon.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

*gasp* Mom! Rover's in the box!!!

Our little church hosts Kidz Church the first Sunday of every month.  It's a service geared strictly to the kids.  One of the features is a life size dog, Rovercomer (or his cousin - the uh, ah-hem, female version - Hannah-belle).  The kids, especially Elijah, love his visits! 

This past month, as we were hosting Kidz Church, we became aware Rover's storage tote had a very strange smell that had covered all the clothes and costume.  I offered to bring it all home, wash the clothes and air out the costume.  The large tote is setting in our guest room...

Tonight, I look up to see Elijah running from the guest room - eye's wide, heart pounding, "Mom - Rovercomer!!!!" 

And I knew... my little guy had found Rover's costume. 

"Mom, Rover's in da box!!" 

"Yes, Elijah, he's sleeping." 

"Mom, I saw Rover's feet!!." 

"Yes, Rover's feet are in the box too." 

I explained that Rover is sleeping in his house.  He sat on my lap a full 10 minutes and couldn't quit talking about Rover.  I tried distracting him with a video but he kept turning his attention back to Rover.  I gave a brief explanation "Rover needed some clean clothes so Mommy brought him home and I'm doing his laundry........."  I even took Elijah outside for some quality time.  As soon as we came back in the house

"Mom, Rover's sleeping??"

"Yes, Elijah, he's sleeping.  Don't worry about Rover, he's fine."
10 minutes later...

"Mom, Rover's sleeping??"

"Yes, Elijah, he's sleeping. Don't worry about Rover, he's fine."

And again...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Growing Pains

I have horrible growing pains... not because I'm growing... but because my precious angel is changing so much the past few days.  He's shot up an inch, I'm guessing.  And the talking he does leaves me in tears.  He talks up a storm - in complete sentences - and so smart.  Yes, you're hearing one proud Mommy, but I truly believe he is above average.  ☺

Here's a funny for ya...

Last week he brought me a tampon. Yes, you read that right.  He brings it to me and says "I want cheese stick, Mommy."  Of course, I told him that was NOT a cheese stick and put it away.  On Friday night, he came to Chris, handed him a tampon and said "You want some, Daddy?"  Chris was humilated since my parents were there... Goodness... I've laughed over this so many times!

It seems we're always having a good laugh at Elijah's expense.  He keeps us in stiches.  Like the time he was deer hunting... by calling "here deer, deer... here deer, deer..." then he would shoot the deer.  Next time it was "here turkey, turkey..."  I love it!

I started another blog... While I'm Weight-ing.  Which is why my profile is all weirded out.  I can't figure out how to set two different profiles.  Any suggestions are appreciated.  The blog is about weight loss... check it out and follow me through my weight loss travels!  I'll be posting to both blogs...


Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Snow... I want to wash my hair with... sssnoooww!

We FINALLY got some snow!  Beautiful, cold, WHITE, snow!!!  In case you can't tell, we love snow around here.  Not the mud that follows snow... just the snow itself.  It was some of the most beautiful snow I've ever seen in my life as the big flakes came pouring down! 

My cozy home

I wish the lights had been on... you know, to give it that Thomas Kinkaid look!  But alas, I took this from work (yes, I live that close to my job) and because it was during working hours, my little home looks nearly vacant.  This picture was taken just hours after the snow started.  It actually snowed nearly 24 hours and we ended up with about 4 inches.

Last night, Chris took Elijah out for sled rides.  I wasn't sure how much Elijah would enjoy it, but I should have never worried.  He had a BLAST!  He kept telling Daddy "faster! faster!"   Pretty cute if you ask me.   Of course, he could barely move from all the bundles of clothes I'd put on him!

I've got several pictures I'd love to share, but blogger seems to be having some issues with photos.  I'll try again later, or create a slide show.

Enjoy the beauty of winter!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Peace in the routine

I have to admit, as much as I enjoy the short weeks (thanks to long weekends), and as much as I enjoy the holidays, I am happy to be through them and heading back into the routine we affectionately call "normal".  I know... whatever "normal" is supposed to mean?  I'm sure your normal is different than mine.

Of course, this sinus infection/cold that I've picked up somewhere left me sleeping waAay past my normal wake up time.  I'm sure I needed the extra rest, but it sure left me scrambling to get to work on time....  Which is pretty much normal!